Been a while .. hi.

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Perfection in the distance underneath a haze,
& as each step would apparently bring it closer,
it gets no clearer.
Quarantine yourself with the view,
& don't forget a pen,
for within loneliness comes a price of height.
A symbol isn't an actuality,
it is simply that ..
a symbol.
Don't give it more value than it's worth,
again.
Headed for a cliff,
& in the distance,
underneath that so familiar haze,
is the unfamiliar.
No contradiction,
just diction.
Speak louder because the wind as I fall is deafening.
A price of height paid with words,
written words.
You hear the coins clamour with each letter written,
but nothing is ever gained.
After those words and clamour,
closer & clearer are not a symbol,
but now translucent & an actuality.
See now the familiar & unfamiliar at once,
perfection is a symbol for imperfection.

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thankyou. :)

Current Location: in a chair.
Current Mood: okay
Current Music: Careful - Paramore

Posting this from my cell (new HTC Touch Pro :D), so we'll see how this turns out.
 

By the way, follow me on Twitter! xParaholic

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It Speaks! by Jordan Turtle

Write your woes in the wind,
with your vocal pleads for perfection within this utterly imperfect world.
You'll never hear me,
see me,
feel me if you don't take a chance,
take a breath thats not a gasp.
Live a life thats free of weight upon your shoulders,
but don't let your head float to high.
I am love,
affection,
security and devotion.
Trust me,
don't trust anyone ..
.. unless you love them,
trust them carefully even then.
I am yours,
if you know how to use me.

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thankyou. :)

Current Location: in my bed.
Current Mood: enthralled
Current Music: the sound of Big Brother.

I know I've disappeared and I've meant to get on here to write something but I honestly could not find the time as of late. Anyway, here is the explosion that will be known as my return.
 

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Ardency by Jordan Turtle

May you understand that one single kiss will never lead you to happiness,
for one single kiss lasts but a moment in time.
It's when you freeze that kiss in the moment and savour it for what it is,
sweeter than life and death and life again ..
and then watch the sky explode in a murmur of what was once one who was hopeless to himself and the world,
and breathe deep.
Do not exhale,
let it sink in that this is not for just one, nor two, nor three ..
this is for all humanity to ponder and perscribe.
This is the sweetness that is the true adulation between two souls,
made physical between two bodies,
with enough electricty to put the worst storm known to any man,
alive or dead,
to shame.
Worship the tenderness that is the weakness of the sentimental yearning involvement with the infatuation of these two.
This is when I predict that you are questioning,
"What is so heartfelt to make this one speak so passionately?"
It's love,
and it's real.
Believe it.
Breathe it.
Murmur it.
Ponder it.
In this sweet,
tender,
flaming,
rapture-like kiss ..
this is where true devotion lives.

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thank you. :)

Current Location: in a chair.
Current Mood: sleepy
Current Music: Say (All I Need) - OneRepublic

Something I needed to get off my chest ..

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Seamen Overboard by Jordan Turtle

She cut off your face and replaced it with something more to her liking,
and you silenced your tongue as she did so,
not even so much as asking why she wished to transplant that which was your make-up.
Your life consists of naught but her,
and everyone can see the light shining bright upon the changes of your entire entity ..

yet you don't bother to take a stand,
yet you allow her to rip you down to the pure essentials and rebuild you from scratch.
You let your word fall effortlessly like feathers in a tornado,
let her sweep it all away in a loss of feeling toward any who she is not.
"It's in the cards,"
well deal your own hand you idiotic bastard.
Rip the Ace of Spades into pieces and burn it there,
infront of her eyes.
Show her you are no puppet,
of her or any other.

You have neither the guts,
nor the testicular fortitude.

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thankyou. :)

Current Location: in a chair.
Current Mood: pissed off
Current Music: In Pursuing Design - VersaEmerge

I couldn't stop ..
 

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Blind Me From My Bedside by Jordan Turtle

Enter the spotlight,
for my eyes are straining.
I need to view you clearer.
I need to see you for what you really are.
What do you say,
other than what I already know?
Blasphemy being trumpeted from between your lips,
from your tunneling throat,
from your moving lungs inside your heaving chest,
in proximity of your heart.
Between us,
there is no unanimity,
for I haven't the slightest clue of the thoughts that race between your ears.
I won't fall asleep feeling empty again,
I won't fall asleep feeling alone again,
I won't fall asleep feeling abandoned ..
but I can't sleep whatsoever,
with this blinding light highlighting your every move.
I can't ignore you anymore ..

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thankyou. :)

Current Location: in a chair.
Current Mood: drained
Current Music: Pressure [Acoutic] - Paramore

I felt like writing something.

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Hide and Seek by Jordan Turtle

.. and your smoke strangles me,
wrapping itself around my neck.
Puff on another cigarette,
I'm falling through my safety net as it burns away with the rest of my sanity.
Eyes ablaze,
body, a flame ..
my mind a blank.
Take this load away from my shoulders and allow me to clear my head.
I can't think.
You deal me one card after another,
and by the final one, the entire deck has been shovelled into the furnace ..
all but one,
your Ace of Spades.
You face has made me rip myself to shreads,
flesh from bone,
attempting to find my inner evil,
which you say all have ..
but for some reason,
it's better at hiding than I am at seeking.

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thankyou. :)

Current Location: in a chair.
Current Mood: distressed
Current Music: Spotlight [Twilight Mix] - Mutemath

Felt like writing something .. this is what happened.

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Taunting Whore by Jordan Turtle

Renounce the pronounced,
denounce the announced.
Inflict your infectious infatuation upon idle alienations of the annexed.
Make them all want what they can't have,
don't you dare flaunt,
not even one half,
of what you are capable of flagging.
Unjust jests.
A hallow hallelujah hollered high,
slips from their trembling lips as they dream of what they think is just beyond their fingertips,
but in truth is further than they could ever fathom.
"This time we're not giving up,"
well you will forever grasp for something millenia from your reach.
Realize.
She does patronize.
Realize.
She supports the unrealistic.
Realize,
reality ..
really?

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thankyou. :)

Current Location: in a chair.
Current Mood: sleepy
Current Music: Hallelujah (TFR!) - Paramore

I have no idea where this came from, it's just a splurge of whatever ran through my head .. whatever I happened to be feeling at the moment was written down.

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Simplicity of a Heart by Jordan Turtle [Credit to jeramore for the title.]

Take a fall,
now you're one of us.
See through it all,
stare into the lights.
Allow them to blind you indefinitely.
Allow.
Open your heart and soul to that which you will never fully understand or comprehend,
but do it for the simplicity of this fact,
the fact that with the completion of this life you will have no time to ponder what may have been,
but only to revel in what you have accomplished.
Oh God,
dear God,
if there is a God ..
speak now,
or forever hold your peace.

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thankyou. :)

Current Location: in a chair.
Current Mood: confused
Current Music: Heretics & Killers - Protest the Hero

I have noo idea where this came from, but I think it's a good outline for a story. I just might start it ..

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Fire In The Sky Replaces The Fire Beneath The Earth by Jordan Turtle

Burn off all the angels from the sky,
and let them fall in a fiery rain that will forever scar the earth with their smouldering bodies.
Let the clouds turn red and the sun be out-shone,
with the emflamed corpses of what was once divinity.
Trechery among the heavenly,
causing the most awe-striking display of sick unholy beauty to ever be witnessed by these mortal eyes,
who watch intently as the once flying doves become now fallen angels.
Captivated.
Created evidence to lead into this,
a seed planted by the first fallen one,
the Morning Star,
along with aid from the tainted second-chorus of angels,
a single Archangel infidel.
& now, the rest burn.
Burn from sunrise to sunset,
from Lucifer to Vesper,
from brother to brother.
Hell has frozen over,
when the father and the son are decieved.
Hell has frozen over,
when the world has come to an end,
and not the end of prophecy,
oh no.
Hell has frozen over,
hell yes,
Hell has frozen over.

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thankyou. :)

Current Location: in a chair.
Current Mood: creative
Current Music: No Stars Over Bethlehem - Protest the Hero

Feeling a little .. well, I'll let the poem do the talking. :)

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Want & Need Are Sisters by Jordan Turtle

My mind wanders as my fingers play with this pen,
my thoughts fondel the idea of touching your face with the palm of my hand,
and as another sappy lovesong plays in my ears,
a smile creeps across my lips.

Palm reader,
truth seeker,
you may not be in my future,
yet.
But when I take fate into my hands,
the same hands that long to smooth your soft skin,
I will shape it at my will ..

though you are far beyond my capabilities,
I could use a trillion similes,
and it wouldn't express the want I have,
more closely related to need,
to soothe you when you hurt,
to dry your eyes when they weep,
and to hold you close when you shudder.

It makes no sense at all.

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thankyou. :)

Current Location: in a chair.
Current Mood: calm
Current Music: Palms Read - Protest the Hero