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Feeling a little .. well, I'll let the poem do the talking. :)

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Want & Need Are Sisters by Jordan Turtle

My mind wanders as my fingers play with this pen,
my thoughts fondel the idea of touching your face with the palm of my hand,
and as another sappy lovesong plays in my ears,
a smile creeps across my lips.

Palm reader,
truth seeker,
you may not be in my future,
yet.
But when I take fate into my hands,
the same hands that long to smooth your soft skin,
I will shape it at my will ..

though you are far beyond my capabilities,
I could use a trillion similes,
and it wouldn't express the want I have,
more closely related to need,
to soothe you when you hurt,
to dry your eyes when they weep,
and to hold you close when you shudder.

It makes no sense at all.

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thankyou. :)

Current Location: in a chair.
Current Mood: calm calm
Current Music: Palms Read - Protest the Hero

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[Written February 13th, 2009]

This is the last of my pre-written stuff, so the rest of it will be fresh from the mind straight to LJ. :) Woohoo.

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Defeating The Purpose by Jordan Turtle

Defeating the purpose with the surfacing of your true emotions,
and when the dimming sunlight shimmers upon them,
it reveals things that nobody would have ever known without it.
Now, with this knowledge, we can build upon this barren landscape that sits between us.
Then, and only then, will you feel alive again ..
because since that faithful day so many moons ago,
you have been dead unto the world,
blind unto the sun,
deaf unto the wind,
and mute unto the rest of humanity.
Retrieving your life,
it will,
without a doubt,
be a daunting task.

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thankyou. :)

Current Location: in a chair.
Current Mood: chipper chipper
Current Music: Homecoming - Hey Monday

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[Written February 7th, 2009]

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An Ocean On My Shoulders by Jordan Turtle

Life without love longs endlessly for just a little tenderness,
which lay dead in the gutter just outside my window.
No reason to attempt any ressurection,
for it's been dead for far too long to breathe any life into it's cold corpse.
& without that tenderness,
this heart grows weary,
and these eyes fail to recognize any point.
These ears hear sounds,
these hands feel textures ..
but this heart sinks further into nothing.
I don't think these strings will ever let go ..
I don't think this will ever stop tugging at my soul,
and I really hope it doesn't.
Maybe one day,
it'll be a good thing ..
but not today,
for today it is a burden I wish was far beneath the furthest wave of the deepest ocean ..
it's not,
it's right here in my chest,
on my shoulders,
in my hands,
in my head ..
and it won't go away.

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thankyou. :)

Current Location: in a chair.
Current Mood: blah blah
Current Music: Arizona - Hey Monday

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[Written February 5th, 2009]
 

I don't like this one at all.

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Return by Jordan Turtle

A shiver runs throughout my body,
and a tear runs from my eye,
as this thought runs through my mind ..
and a thousand words ring in my ears.

I am on a conquest to find that which evades me,
at any cost,
and I am a man of my word.
I place my heart as a reward for helping me acquire this,
and the one who is the one may keep it forever more.

Oh, complications exceed the limits,
and it all wells up inside as it spews out my mouth and through my ears,
boiling over the top and out into the cold night's air,
showing the world what I really feel inside.

I couldn't hold it any longer,
it got away from me ..
and now I want it back.

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thankyou. :)

Current Location: in a chair.
Current Mood: hopeful hopeful
Current Music: Pressure (Acoustic) - Paramore

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[Written February 2nd, 2009]
 

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A Way Out by Jordan Turtle

 Love was just a way out,
and as I lay here on the ground,
I will dismiss the weakness,
I found within this one ..
I'm somehow reminded,
I fall for your kind and,
it never works out.
Love was just a way out.
Again and again,
repeated inside my skull,
and on the outside I soundlessly scream.
Love was just your way out.
Oh, it's funny ..
love was just your way out,
yet here we go again.

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thankyou. :)

Current Location: in a chair.
Current Mood: fu*king SHITTY.
Current Music: I'm So Sick - Flyleaf

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[Written January 14th, 2009]
 

This one was something of a .. well, a release for me. Sorry if it isn't that good.

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Erase This Memory by Jordan Turtle

As another shot trickles down my throat,
and another pulse grinds through my viens,
you race through my mind,
like a beast, un-tamed.
I'm turning my back on you,
and yet you seem to dance inside my eyes.
I can't escape,
I'm so irate.
Don't even try,
you're wasting time.
This isn't your night,
so leave it,
hastily,
and leave me be,
for I need naught,
to be happy now ..
yet you taunt me with your ever present,
and disturbingly annoying chant,
"You'll never forget."

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thankyou. :)

Current Location: in a chair.
Current Mood: crushed crushed
Current Music: Breathe - Paramore

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[Written December 15th, 2008]
 

The title says it all.

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H-Song by Jordan Turtle

& as my eyes fill like thimbles in a rainstorm,
sing away.
An onslaught of drops presents itself,
and I welcome it with open arms and closed eyes,
open ears to hear your voice.
Do you see,
what you've done?
Amazing.
Amazing.
It is truly appauling that you can do this,
'cause such an uprising,
and overflowing,
wave of emotion,
with just a harmonic casting of notes.
I love it.
I love it.
It's some kind of magic,
and that's the only explanation.
Inspirational,
you are.

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thankyou. :)

Current Location: in a chair.
Current Mood: confused confused
Current Music: Eyes On Fire - Blue Foundation

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[Written December 12th, 2008]
 

I wonder what inspired this ..

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Another Spew Into Emptiness by Jordan Turtle

I'll write you from a million miles away,
with the tiniest glimmer of hope,
that by some miraculous occurance,
you have the smallest sense of this,
these words scattered out into infinite space,
and I pray that they find their way to you,
somehow or someway,
you comprehend in the futhest corners of your mind,
that these words are meant for you,
and are directed at your heart,
for as it beats mine slows,
just so I can listen closer and examine,
each beat just a little more carfully.
A sharpened pulse runs in my veins,
as I write to remember that,
I'm alright.

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thankyou. :)

Current Location: in a chair.
Current Mood: discontent discontent
Current Music: Hallelujah - Paramore

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[Written December 12th, 2008]
 

Another one of my favorites .. I honestly can't remember what made me write it, but I know waht song I was listening to while writing it. See if you guys can figure it out.

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Dead One Dancing by Jordan Turtle

Within this lifeless corpse,
this is how we'll be.
Dance with grace,
let your arms be extensions of the sky.
Open your eyes and let them sing,
let your heart thump along with the infernal beat,
let the heat of the moment burn you from the outside in.
When they try to defeat us,
continue to move your feet,
scream what you will,
and dance until the sky shatters.
Let not it distress you,
that they wish you to fall.
May your legs be extensions of the earth itself,
unfaltering.
A word,
whispered,
spoken,
sung,
screamed,
it's all the same.
I am ready,
won't you let it begin.
Dance now,
rejoice,
in the palm of it's hand ..

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thankyou. :)

Current Location: in a chair.
Current Mood: cranky cranky
Current Music: Crushcrushcrush (Harris Briggs Remix) - Paramore

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[Written December 1st, 2008]

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Ominous Nothing by Jordan Turtle

I see nothing in your eyes,
and I must repeat that until I believe it.
The less I see,
the more I crave until I see that nothing again.
That beautiful,
awe-striking,
heart-shattering nothing.
That nothing that means everything,
that nothing that makes the world go 'round.
That nothing,
it'll be the death of me.

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thankyou. :)

Current Location: in a chair.
Current Mood: uncomfortable uncomfortable
Current Music: Hello Hello - Hayley Williams

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